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Stephanie
Date: 2010-04-07 22:27
Subject: Fitness goals
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Okay. I really need to set some strict rules for myself if I'm ever going to get even moderately in shape for this wedding. I ordered these exercise DVDs... and I'm using them pretty regularly... and I'm eating more fruit and veggies lately... but I need more discipline. I can't bring myself to exercise... I'm fine once I start, but I hate that "starting" part. I need some serious motivation because I am one of the world's great procrastinators. Don't believe me? It's April 7. I haven't filed my taxes yet. That doesn't sound weird? I neglected to mention that I have an $8,000 tax credit coming my way...

Anyway. Fitness rules, effective immediately:
- Start doing workout DVD routines regularly.
- Run for 30 minutes on "Sculpt" days.
- Limit calorie intake to 1600 per day.
- No more than 50 calories of chocolate candy per day. (That will be easier when the Easter candy is gone...)
- No more than two "cheat meals" per week (i.e., eating out).

I'm getting frustrated with the workout DVDs because I'm really giving all I can every time and I'm not seeing any results yet. Maybe that's normal, or maybe I need to kick the diet up a notch. Something's got to change! Ready... set... START.
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-11-02 22:23
Subject: (no subject)
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Mood:refreshedrefreshed
Music:Lady GaGa
I just had dinner with a very special friend and I am so glad that we have managed to keep in touch over the past few years despite busy schedules. I could literally tell her anything and I know she would never judge me or look at me differently for it. I hope she knows how much I appreciate having her in my life. :)
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-09-20 18:45
Subject: God's work
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Mood:refreshedrefreshed
I decided to start going back to Community Christian. I've gone for two weeks in a row now, and it's been really hard, but incredibly rewarding. Those doors welcome people in all walks of life. I don't know anyone there anymore but its name is very appropriate: it's a true community.

Today the pastor spoke about connectedness to others; we share each other's burdens and take personal responsibility all at once. He mentioned Acts 4:34: "There were no needy persons among them." At the end of the service he asked everyone put money in these blue bowls if not in need and take money from the bowls if in need. The church band started a song and everyone started walking back toward the bowls to give money. I had $10 in my wallet so I went to contribute that. I peeked in the bowl and saw $50 and $20 bills as well as blank checks (with amounts filled in). When the song was over, the pastor said his prediciton was accurate: everyone was being very generous and giving, but no one was taking. He said, "I know there are people here in need. Please take what you need. Don't let your pride get in the way. Now, we're going to start the song in the middle, and this time, I only want people who are in need to go back to the bowls."

The band started and it looked like everyone was staying in place. One man near me walked back. Then a group of women on the far side of the room started back slowly. Three of them were escorting the fourth, who was resisting. They brought her back there and reassured her that it was all right to take from the bowl. She started to cry and had a difficult time bringing herself to take the money. It was so overwhelming and moving that I started crying, too. I got a sense of how my dad would feel when he left there in tears: he belonged, he had faith, and he was loved.

I never liked going to church as a child. My church was cold and disconnected. I want to feel the way I felt today when I go to church. I look forward to it. I know I belong there and I feel refreshed and uplifted when I leave.

I'm glad to be back.
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-08-26 21:10
Subject: (no subject)
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Mood:optimisticoptimistic
As crazy as my teaching schedule is, I think it's going to be a great year :)
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-08-11 23:21
Subject: MOVING
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Mood:sleepysleepy
Music:some song with Neyo in it
Moving day = Saturday, August 29. Or maybe Sunday, August 30, depending on everyone's availability. Only a few hours one of those days. Let me know if you want to help out... we will feed you :)
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-05-28 21:47
Subject: exhaustedddd
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Mood:draineddrained
I just want to let everyone know I haven't forgotten about you! I have been very tired and busy lately and have become something of a hermit. Plus Steph and Tom's wedding is coming up on Saturday (!!!) and I have been getting ready for that as co-maid-of-honor. I am so excited!!! AND school is going to be out in less than two weeks now!!! WHOA.

Sorry for the weird post. I'd work to make it less weird but right now I am tired and am going to bed. Hope to see/hear from you all soon :)
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-05-02 14:01
Subject: (no subject)
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Mood:groggygroggy
Music:"The Way You Make Me Feel" -Michael Jackson
Happy birthday to me. Something I ate killed my stomach and most of my friends bailed on karaoke. I must be crazy because I have friends who bail all the time and I am still surprised and disappointed every time. When will I learn?

I made the karaoke event on facebook and invited about 65 people, knowing not more than a dozen would end up coming. I just thought it would be fun, and it's something I've been wanting to do for months now. I had one person enthusiastically respond with "attending" who actually did attend. I had two people not respond but surprise me and show up, which made my night. Most people responded with "maybe" or "not attending" which is totally fine. When I made the event I didn't have any expectations about who would or wouldn't come.

Some responses annoyed me, though. I had a "maybe" who said, "...but I don't know if I'll be able to make it because of excuse that couldn't possibly make any sense. Have fun though!" If you don't want to come, grow a pair and tell me you don't want to come. Or just don't say anything. Nonsense excuses are irritating. Someone else all of a sudden had something come up that she had obviously known about for a while, so I don't know why she would agree repeatedly to come in that case. Someone agreed to come and then made other plans.

I'm not mad, just disappointed. I'm really not feeling emo about it, either, even though it probably sounds like I am. If this entry showed up on one of my friends' livejournals I'd probably read it and roll my eyes and think, "Suck it up!" Like I said before, I shouldn't be surprised about any of the responses above. They have tendencies (some way more than others) to be friends of convenience.

All I wanted was to see some of my friends on my birthday. I have another six years before my birthday is on a Friday again. To those who bailed: next time just be honest with me.
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-04-27 22:04
Subject: sleeeep
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Mood:sleepysleepy
Music:SUPERBAD
Karaoke Friday night at Camden Pub for my birthday if you wanna come out :)

I can't wait for the school year to be overrrr!

Ahh, the weather is fabulous!
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-04-21 23:32
Subject: mystery
Security: Public
Mood:infuriatedinfuriated
Today, I had this extremely long post typed that was really difficult for me to write. I guess the universe doesn't want me to put it out there because my internet disconnected itself and livejournal just erased the entry. Twice. FML
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Stephanie
Date: 2009-03-04 13:05
Subject: I hate making tedious phone calls
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Location:apartment
Mood:lonelylonely
I've been feeling kind of isolated down here in Ellicott City lately. I didn't move away from Perry Hall to leave my entire life behind, but it certainly feels that way sometimes. It's hard not being able to see my family often -- lately we've averaged twice a month. I only see my friends when I can/feel like driving across town, which sucks. I feel so far away and disconnected from nearly everyone I love.

Last night I went out with Steph and Amanda to talk about bridal shower and bachelorette party plans. It was hard realizing most of the plans have already been set. I had no idea she wanted to go downtown bar-hopping. Amanda's been calling around to find a limo and helping with everything. I know I'm something of second-in-command, which is totally fine, but I felt out of the loop. I'm glad we were all finally able to get together so we could be on the same page. I'm so excited for Steph -- we've been friends since middle school and I don't want us to drift apart. We had this great plan of doing a double date twice a month but that hasn't exactly worked out yet. I hope we can change that!

It also sucks that I haven't seen Sarah or Steph W. in a month. At least we'll get together this weekend for Steph's birthday, but it's important to me to see them more, especially with Sarah planning to move across the country in the fall. We're only about thirty miles apart now, we should take advantage of that short distance!

I haven't seen Megan very much lately, either. I'm glad she's been so good about calling me because I've put myself in a funk with this. I've just been chilling at the apartment, which is exactly what I've been trying to avoid... She's done a good job of getting me to come out and be around people. She's always willing to drive down here to hang out if I can't make it up to her end of town. I appreciate that so much because I do so much driving all the time, between work and running to Towson and Perry Hall... to have a break from that once in a while is very nice.

I have such a cute little apartment and the only people who are ever here are Mike and me! Well, and "the guys" sometimes. I love to cook for people... why doesn't anyone want to eat my food?? lol.

Well I guess I'll stop procrastinating now and call these doctors and payroll. And get my taxes together. And get my hair cut. And see about a summer job...
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